balance.

i don't like this outfit anymore.






totally ashy. an' i hope you don't like it...lol.

sweater: h&m
shirt: scala
belt: ???
jeans: rag and bone
shoes: cnc, costume national

been living in this sweater for the past few weeks. it is the perfect cut and weight for crisp summer evenings and cold trains and chilly office spaces.  will definitely be needing another one.  i wonder if they still make it?

also been enjoying the last dregs of summer and racking up hours at work. so many hours. as in i got home at nearly 3 this morning and will be going back to work tonight at 6...i may actually need to get more sleep now.

dood....DOOOOOD, school starts on THURSDAY! *hangs self* but i'm actually kind of stoked to spend some time on self-amelioration. heh. will let you know how it turns out round about christmas time.  i think this could be really good for me.  a series of very difficult decisions and hard lessons have brought me here and i'm very happy that i went through them. just ready now for it to be 'me-time'.  me time is essential.  my good word of the day:  please give yourselves as much me time as YOU need. sometimes, we (ahem, i) forget to put others aside in order to give yourself some much needed *insert noun here*. so this is just a friendly reminder to occasionally say f*** the world and give yourself what you need.  happy monday. :)

deciding factor

more collage fun!
i was told i resemble aunt jemima with this scarf on my head. *shrugs*


self portraits, lol.

shirt: coming soon
bra: calvin klein
jeans: levi's
shoes: miu miu
scarf: vintage...something or other
messy apartment: courtesy of me; i wish i had a good photo taking spot like koko. jealz.

trying to decide if i should keep this coming soon sweater. it's a man's shirt, but the thin weave and the slouchy fit just seemed so perfect. however, upon bringing home a rather, err...large bill, i have to make some cuts and this is one of the items that may have to go back. upon trying it with this, i think it def will, however. not so chic. i kind of like my maple syrup/old slave headscarf though. i don't think anyone else did today. alas, a shit i fail to give.

how are y'all coping with this heat? i'm melting. MELTINNNNGGG. <---does this actually mimic a 'ng' sound?

12 hours

surreptitiously took this photo. this woman's posture, skirt, and headscarf all gave the impression that she was very wise. silly, i thought. so i snapped it. :) i thought she was beautiful. and probably wise.


wait for it...

...ruining their photo.

followed by my lightning fast escape.







mesh dress: rogan
bandeau bra: calvin klein
shorts: rogan
shoes: repetto
bag: furla







picnic in central park. great conversations. admitted to possession of a blog and obsession with fashion. crazy cab ride in hunt of a bathroom. dipped in and out of a restaurant with a raging manager yelling at us. an assortment of alcoholic beverages at the bar. wings. waking up hours later with no recollection of what happened and how i got to be in stranger's bed. more drinks. tv veg session. more talking. vodka, music mix, more conversations, 2 eastern europeans and a sunrise later, i began the trek home.

full day. i am content.

down by the riverside

a few snaps from my jaunt out to harlem. even got an adorable video of some little girls fleeing a toy car. 



dress: h&m
shoes: mine de rien
bag: etro--i adore the paisley print. would really like to own more of their stuff. especially these boots. it was love at first sight when i held those darling boots in my arms. i put them back very gently when the SA informed me warmly of the price. still, i love the non-stuck-upness of the store staff. i was in there for over an hour touching everything and talking to the associate about the brand (they gave all their staff a free pair of limited edition shoes!!!) i like friendly stores, like margiela's. perhaps it was simply because i was in vegas and folk there are perpetually drunk so they act super nice to thusly handicapped persons. clearly thinking too much into it. enjoy the weekend guys.

my days grow longer

cooking 5 meals. right now. all at once. feeling very productive. 

also ignoring the dozens of assignments i need to be tackling. probably the reason for all the 'productivity'.

it was too hot to wear real clothes.

vest: ???

shirt: ???

jeans: rich and skinny

shoes: repetto

bag: triple 5 soul


should i get this leather jumper? would be cool for fall...i think. or just odd.

help me decide!!!

"brain cells come and go...fat cells live forever..."

funniest thing i've read in awhile.
especially since my brain cells seem to just be going and fat cells seem to just be coming.


this post was to be entitled "smiles for melody". learning to smile more in pictures. i FREAK in front of a camera.


no idea wtf i'm thinking here..."where do you go when you die?"



the boy says i'm cut like an athlete from the back. used to be one. now i just have their shoulders. lol. NO shirts fit. NONE.




my new margielas. love the color.


watching THE stupidest movie ever.  oh meg ryan...what happened to you? i still love you! you just need the right role, i know it.

shirt: scala
pants: kenar. they look and feel like paper. but on, they feel like sweats. uber soft.
shoes: martin margiela
bag: dkny

dude, i have a bun!

day and night

 worn to brunch.  they just kept on pouring those drinks....i then fell asleep in the movies right after this.

shirt: rvca
skirt: tahari
shoes: fratelli rosetti

some details omitted from the last post.

my go-to watch and newly resurrected cuff

weird birthmark that i've always had and rarely see...and my necklace.

shoes came. they're so good. will be doing a post soon. it's so hot outside, i can't think.

it's not what it looks like...but it is very bland

lines....sorry guys...


talking with my hands...sooo not what it looks like.

i thought this outfit looked way better in real life...kinda lame in the photos.

sitting with my buttermilk concoction in my hair. i gave myself a trim the other day (it's SO bad, i know it) and couldn't stop fiddling with the newly shorn, smooth ends. i decided to take better care of it and just let it do its thing.  so trying to keep it happy now. i'm officially a slave to my hair.

did you know that SATC2 was out on DVD already????? shocking...really.

watching young victoria...i freaking ADORE emily blunt.

someone told me i was down to earth today. she said that knowing my background, she's surprised that i'm not more of a prissy, stuck-up sort of girl. she then apologized if it came off as though she was insinuating i had no breeding, lol. i love compliments like that. totally real and uncontrived(?). correct my spelling, julia!

shirt: j crew
jeans: earnest sewn
shoes: bill blass
belt: gap
cuff: second hand store i stumbled across in CT
necklace: gift from a friend
watch: Michael Anthony; rec'd on my college graduation day from an obscure family friend. i wear it always.

have you all any fantastic, enviable weekend plans? i'll likely be home. piling bananas into my hair or watching more Netflix now that my internet connection is fixed. super fun yeah?!? no? alright