can't beat the heat

i feel like this photo makes me look 'thick', lol. been receiving a lot of comments on my derriere lately...growing up, i always wanted to have a butt like one of those video girls or this beauty. alas, neither of those things happened and then i realized that wafer-thin and anorexics were 'in', i.e. on the runway.  given those two extremes, i think i just want to be toned and healthy. bought a 30 day membership for bikram yoga. wish me luck. haven't started yet because of the heat wave, but hoping next week, i'll be motivated by my dissatisfaction with how my clothes fit.


struggling to keep cool. currently blazin' saddles here in the city. sorry if i look really shiny. it's cuz i am. popped out of the shower and put my hair up and threw this on for the afternoon. this is perhaps one of my most 'provocative' dresses. it's tissue thin and the decolletage (how do you do accents on a laptop...?) is just...shocking by my standards. but i love it. it catches a wind like a vane and despite my hatred for embellishments of any sort, i really like the dangly, waterfall-y type neck thing. lol. articulate, yeah?

i've read all of your comments on my hydrophobia.
it's a damn shame that i'm from an island and can't swim. but i was traumatized i tell you (plus, despite all the immigrant jokes, i totally didn't swim here)!!! as part of your training, they chuck you in the deep end of the pool and make you grab hold of a pole and/or tread water. i can't tread water and i can't open my eyes underwater. i'm freaking terrified that when i open them there will be rows and rows and rows of teeth. so i failed that. and i never go in the deep end anymore unless i've got flippers on. yes, flippers. in the pool. and goggles. i totally sang 'i'm on a boat' for like 4 days before the trip and then for about 30 mins after it started. then i realized being on a boat ain't all it cracked up to be. i mean, you can't SEE your feet!!! perhaps in the caribbean with clearer waters and my goggles, i'll feel a bit more comfy. until then, no cruises.

currently getting screwed on ebay. bought a dress from the general economy blog and it didn't fit (i was told that side boobage was not attractive...hmph!) so put it on ebay for half the price and the buy it now as the full price. and one person has bid at the minimum price.  *forehead slap, hangs self*. anyway, at least it'll be out of my house. freaking awful that this is my consolation, though.

i did like 8 loads of laundry yesterday but am in the midst of folding it all still. in the meantime, i'm obsessed with the tudors so as i fold my whites, i'll be soaking up the blatant fornication. helps one stay focused on the tedium, i find.

just bought 4 wine glasses, 3 knives and a $15 bottle of conditioner for $18 and change. freaking SWEET. i love discounts.

gonna go make dinner now with my new utensils!  as my kitchen is most akin to HELL at the moment, wish me luck and fortitude.  if i pass out, thanks for the support. i feel less self-conscious about drowning, lol.

oh, and the boy made this. i asked if i could share it and he said yes.  he's explained it to me...it all seems very complicated to my non-technical mind, but to me it mostly looked pretty cool:

but then again, i'm into construction equipment and power tools.

ok, done rambling.  will be back to visiting your blogs once i meet this deadline this evening.

dressed

little bit prim and a little bit glum today. not feeling too hot--and still not sleeping--but attempted to dress myself properly to cheer up some. evidently, it didn't really work, but hey, at least i don't feel worse.

also of note:
i think i attract very strange strangers...

incident 1:
random man came up to me on the street as i stood outside the american academy of dramatic arts and said, 'hey. you wanna hear some dramatic art?' and proceeds to freestyle at me for five minutes. did i mention he was white? i mean, it's cool if you're white and can rap, but...it was just so...random.

incident 2:
man approaches me on the street, asking for money to make rent for his hotel room for the week. i explain that i'm also short on cash and cannot help him just now. he says 'okay, how about i meet you here tomorrow. about 8:45?'. um. okay. 'great. i'll be here all day. just look for me.' apparently, i'm so hard up for companionshipt that it's cool to make appointments with vagrants now.

planned on starting a 365 this year. since it's like late january now (woot procrastination), i'm debating the intelligence of that move. but...perhaps i'll do it anyway. in february. heh.

coat: walter
sweater: rivy ng
gloves: portolano
dress worn as shirt: dkny
skirt: calvin klein
tights: target
boots: frye
bag: bottega veneta


someday, i'd like to live somewhere like this; where the view from the outside is as nice as the view from the inside.


totally want this desk


branch portions in jars.

imgs via tumblr

so so high

disclaimer:
this was merely an excuse to go out and play with my camera. our other plans were foiled.

after dinner at los dados in the meatpacking district, i wound up visiting the highline last evening. we had drunk very small margaritas from small glasses and feasted my still-full-from-thanksgiving-leftovers stomach on mini tacos.
the temperature dropped considerably, so i was forced to don a coat. however, it was still a gorgeous clear evening, and the best part: finding several boxes of woodchuck cider at a western beef. we purchased TWO six-packs. awesome.









this was after inspecting in great detail the margiela store downtown on greenwich. (no footage as i had no camera at that point) amazing. i think i'd like to own one of every article there. the shoes are to die for, and apparently, those geo-heel booties seen on sbarnscher and the divinitus have sold out (nationwide, i might add) in every size but 36 and 37. except in grey at saks. dammit. but the people there were just as sweet as i was told they would be, socially appropriate in any way, which is a lot more than i can say for a lot of other upscale brands. they're having a 40% off sale, so i will be going back to spend all the money i don't have. especially since i got a raise and buying shit i can't afford helps make me feel better. f*ck yeah, retail therapy.

coat: acne
shirt: gap
sweats: rick owens
boots: frye
bag: gap

anyway, wanted to share these:






STRAIGHT.
and finally,

love lulu.
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