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today is my first day of work. i must leave shortly and yet, here i sit, tap-tap-tapping away like a moron. i've just dragged everything out of my closet and onto my bedroom floor because i'm fed up with it all and can't bear to look at the clutter. i really must take a serious look at the things in there and try to purge again (hey alicia!!!). perhaps this can be a monthly thing. i know there are items in there i will not be wearing any time soon, yet i dread throwing them out and wishing i had not. and a moment later, i admit that if i need something badly enough, i will go out and find a new one that better suits my current aesthetic. dead fleurette, this is partly your fault. but i thank you for injecting this newly resurrected need for clarity in my space (again). oy....i really SHOULD get ready.

as true fall draws nearer, i yearn for more and more warm knits and comfy bits to ease the cool days and nights ahead. i'm quite the anti-femme with my non-stiletto policy. i quite like heels, y'know. just not on me. and not on the hill i have to climb to get to school. and not on my daily treks zig zagging across town. and not up and down stairs in class. but definitely into heels. anyway, here are all the items i can't afford but will try to find copies of so i can NOT spend a shitload of cash.



included (clockwise):

	The Row oversized sweater;    Proenza Schouler Waffleknit sweatshirt;    GG750 Crewneck pullover;    Stella McCartney sweater;    3.1 Phillip Lim Double sleeve pullover;   Les Chiffoniers leather leggings;    Minnetonka back zipper boot;    No. 6 classic biker boots with shearling;    Acne short pistol boot;    Converse leather chucks;    Full length leather gloves;    Steven Alan ruffle panty;    Journelle lace bralette (my boobs are way too 'sensitive' for this but a girl can dream. maybe i should also invest in some pasties...);    O french knickers;    Kiki de Montparnasse silk bloomers.

I would also like a leather jacket, but alas, I could not find one that did not look like every other rick owens/helmut lang/burberry shearling knock off. still pissed about this shearling trend. hoping it fades by next year so i can buy a proper sheepskin jacket. i've AAAALWAYS wanted one dammit. hope you're all having a good week thus far. :)